"Do you guys hang out so much anymore?" asked my sister-in-law. I thought about the question for a second too long, and then answered, "Umm, we still hang out." I failed to mention that no, we don't hang out as much or that it is different than it used to be. That things have changed and I hate it. I avoided talking about the subject any further even though I had so much to say about it.
I didn't think such a simple question would cause so much pain. Pain from the memories. A sick realization that things really have changed and I don't know how to change them back. I miss it. I wish the memories would come back to life and be happening here and now. But trying to relive the past would just be awkward and that is a painful thing to realize.
Title taken from "Memories" by Weezer
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